I typically hate gratitude posts. They remind me of tithing: if it isn’t done in the proper spirit it can come off as gimmicky and trite. But something about the questions in Morgan’s posts makes me want to probe deeper.
My theme for 2022 is “Sow What?” This year, and probably through the end of my Uranus Opposition, I wanted to plant seeds. I said I wasn’t expecting anything to happen. I challenged myself to ask “What is the point of what I’m doing?” and “Why does this matter?, if something moved me. I wanted to probe what I thought mattered and why I’m giving it space on my life.
Then, Morgan’s posts hit me here:
“When you start to practice gratitude right where you are, you’re also practicing having gratitude for what’s to come. You are growing in your ability to sow seeds and water them faithfully. In this space, you start to delight in imagining a better future…and not only for you but for others. You start to be excited about what’s to come in your life and the lives of family and friends.”Morgan Harper Nichols
I’m grateful when I can help people. It gives me the chance to dream. I’m good at doing that for others. I don’t begrudge other’s happiness. Success isn’t scarce nor indirectly proportional to my failures. I just wish God would bless me, too. Or, I wish he would have. It’s too late for all of that now.
When happiness is constantly snatched from your reach, you learn to stop trying. And John finally got me to that point with companionship. I’m grateful to him for that.
And I have 328 days to dream and play. Opportunities abound where I can be grateful for what I have now and comes next.