A Grateful Approach to the Future

I typically hate gratitude posts. They remind me of tithing: if it isn’t done in the proper spirit it can come off as gimmicky and trite. But something about the questions in Morgan’s posts makes me want to probe deeper.

My theme for 2022 is “Sow What?” This year, and probably through the end of my Uranus Opposition, I wanted to plant seeds. I said I wasn’t expecting anything to happen. I challenged myself to ask “What is the point of what I’m doing?” and “Why does this matter?, if something moved me. I wanted to probe what I thought mattered and why I’m giving it space on my life.

Then, Morgan’s posts hit me here:

“When you start to practice gratitude right where you are, you’re also practicing having gratitude for what’s to come. You are growing in your ability to sow seeds and water them faithfully. In this space, you start to delight in imagining a better future…and not only for you but for others. You start to be excited about what’s to come in your life and the lives of family and friends.”

Morgan Harper Nichols

I’m grateful when I can help people. It gives me the chance to dream. I’m good at doing that for others. I don’t begrudge other’s happiness. Success isn’t scarce nor indirectly proportional to my failures. I just wish God would bless me, too. Or, I wish he would have. It’s too late for all of that now.

When happiness is constantly snatched from your reach, you learn to stop trying. And John finally got me to that point with companionship. I’m grateful to him for that.

And I have 328 days to dream and play. Opportunities abound where I can be grateful for what I have now and comes next.

Crossing Uranus/Pluto Line

Geographical position of this line crossing:
71w07′, 40s20′.

“Here, anything is possible. Your life could be turned completely upside down. You experience new and unusual goals. You become a lawless rebel and see yourself playing the role of the lonely, misunderstood outsider.

With the same degree of fanaticism, you combat social conventions and legal norms. You refuse to submit to any power and trust no other authority except your own. Encountering opposition only reinforces your resolve and competitors are defenceless against your attack. Your radical, uncompromising attitude causes a sensation and can frighten friends as well as enemies. However, in your personal development, you run the risk of becoming a prisoner of your own single-minded striving for freedom and individuality.”

This area keeps pulling me back towards it. Maybe it’s time for me to just go and hope it makes sense once I get there.

June 20, 2022 – 17º/16′

And so it begins. Or rather, it’s been underway for some time. Today is the first of three dates in my lifetime where Uranus is stationed in exact opposition (17º/16′, Taurus) of its natal place in my chart (Scorpio). It’ll moonwalk back to this position on Halloween and go through it one last time on April 10th of next year. The author of that link does an amazing job of explaining the significance.

I’m hoping this is the beginning of the end. Of what, I have no idea. I just know things can’t continue this way. There is no more bright side. Let’s march through the darkness and confusion. (Hello, Pluto. My old friend.)